Letting Go, Starting Fresh, and The Courage to Begin Again

A new chapter begins: personal updates, career shifts, and a vision I can’t stop thinking about.

Hello beauties, 

It has been a hot minute, hasn’t it?  Thank you so much for being patient with me as I tended to my health, and then entered into school holidays with my kids (now, it’s back to regular programming with my writing - yewwww!). Just so you know before we get going; this piece will be less of a deep exploration of a theme or topic, and more of a personal update about life, career, health and self.

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It fascinates me how many changes can happen in a single month (or week or day!), and the last month has been no exception.  It’s been a tough last 12 months for me personally (emotionally, physically and mentally), which you’ve probably read about in my most recent piece, but the last month …. well, that’s a different story.  

As I mentioned to you last time, I was in the midst of making some big changes in my life.  I wrapped up breastfeeding, my just-about-to-be-two year old started going to a family daycare a few days each week, I reduced my client load significantly, I’ve been working with a nutritional medicine practitioner very closely to address some core physical challenges that were wreaking havoc on my emotional and mental state, I’ve started an in-depth gut and hormone protocol, and I’ve developed an idea for a new brand which I’m in the process of building behind the scenes. 

It is well documented that novelty is one of the main contributing factors in increasing neuroplasticity.  Meaning; newness breeds newness breeds newness.  When we invite one new element, practice or protocol into our lives, it facilitates more openness and willingness to bring in more.  I recognise now in hindsight that the monotonous and repetitive nature of my day was perpetuating and exacerbating my feelings of dread and heaviness.  In fact, I’m quite certain I knew this at the time, but I felt so weighed down by my own state of being that I couldn’t see my way through.  I couldn’t, for the life of me, see how to generate change.  I dabbled with small changes - my nutrition intake, my exercise regime, the way my furniture was arranged - but these weren’t significant enough to shock me back to life. I needed something radical, and that something was radical responsibility.  

Awareness isn’t enough - we need the resolve to move with that awareness and transform it into something that moves us both within and without.  The awareness that things needed to change was not new - I’d known it for a long time. But the resolve to do whatever it took to blast through the mist was something that I incrementally built into.  Building into resolve doesn’t happen just because we’re not willing to do hard things, sometimes, what we are building into is the right connections and support team, the right information and tools, the necessary journey through that moulds our future perspective and wisdom. We’re always building, and we’re always right on time, but fuck …. That can be a frustrating process.